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- [Blue] Was good, man?

- Chillin', man, chillin', chillin', chillin'.

So Blue called me up, trying to sit down with me

after blindsiding the whole group, and trying

to get the old boy to manage us.

And, once again, now he's putting what he wants

in front of what everybody else wants.

Honestly, that whole meeting just felt

like an ambush on me.

Every single thing in that meeting was Spec, Spec,

I'm gonna whoop your ass.

- I have no idea how it got from trying to get

all us together to you and me arguing.

I have no clue.

- All I wanna is see us is come together, bro.

- We here talking right now because we're brothers.

I'm all you got, man, you know?

But, bro, I don't understand how I've been

your right hand man our whole life, bro.

I'm your brother, and you make somebody else

your best man.

It hurts me, you know what I'm saying?

Like, to take it back, I left old girl crib,

I probably was 12, 13, you know?

And went and stayed with the old boy.

When I made the decision in middle school

to go and stay with my dad,

maybe he felt like I left him with the burden

of taking care of my mother by hisself.

But I was at the age where I needed my father

to teach me how to be a man.

I left you on your own, man.

You know, and to this day, I feel some type of weight

about that.

I ain't wanna leave you, man.

I wanted to be there though, and I wanted you to call.

Then you made another (beep) your best man, man?

It's like, dang, here we go all over again,

you know what I'm saying?

Was me and you separated again.

You moved to L.A., you and me separated,

you know what I'm saying?

I'm down here taking care of the whole family.

And you go.

It can't be like that, bro.

It's like me and you, man, we all we got.

(dramatic music)

- So I ain't gonna lie.

That was touching, bro.

You know, we don't really express a lot of things,

you know, because we got grazed so tough by street dudes.

So, we don't really have that.

But with that said, I would love for you to be my best man.

- Cool.

- I honestly didn't realize how much this is bothering Blue.

But if he wants to be in my wedding, I'll be honored

to have him by my side when I marry Jamee.

- So then my first act as best man.

Bro, with the old boy, man.

You and old boy, ya all need to sit down,

talk father and son, ya all figure out what ya all gonna do.

- The issue is he's not being a father.

Call me, tell me you love me, check on my son.

He don't never call my son, ever.

My oldest son Macari, he stays right here in Miami

with his mom.

And my father stays two blocks away from him,

and don't even make no effort to go see him.

- Bro, that's a hard (beep) doing all that.

- But that's what I'm saying, bro.

That's bull (beep) to me, bro.

But then outta the same breath you gonna call me

and ask me for money.

I didn't even know the old boy.

He was locked up in jail for nine years.

I just wanted him to be a dad, bro.

- Okay. - That's all I care about.

- So do this, - Call me.

- Don't have no meeting. - Give me advice.

- So don't start-- - Give me a hug.

- With a meeting. - God dammit.

- A meeting sounds very business like.

You was playing basketball the other day, invite him out.

- Listen, I ain't trying to be responsible

for no hurt backs and extra Icy Hot.

- So that's a yes?

- It's still a maybe.

(Blue laughs)

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Nissan Can't Escape Lawsuit Over Suspected Defective Transmissions, Judge Rules - Duration: 7:47.

The expenses that come along with owning a vehicle can add up pretty quickly any time

there's any kind of problem with your car, and that's why when there is a manufacturer's

defect that causes consumers to have to pay out of pocket for a mistake or a corner that

was cut by a car corporation, it's even more painful.

Joining me now to talk about one of the latest alleged defects in automobiles here in the

United States is Scott Hardy from topclassactions.com.

Scott, great story here on topclassactions.com talking about the Nissan Altima, allegedly

having transmission problems.

And recently a judge, who was kinda hearing preliminary in this case said that the case

can in fact go forward against Nissan.

Nissan wanted to have this case dismissed.

They said, oh, there's nothing wrong with our transmissions.

This particular plaintiff was just having a problem with her individual car.

That's not us.

That's something that maybe she hit something in the road.

It messed up, but that wasn't our negligence.

Judge says, no, she seems to have some pretty solid evidence here.

We're going to let this go forward and let's see where the chips fall.

Tell us what this particular case is alleging with these Nissan Altima vehicles.

Well, it's really interesting when you take a look at the case and you see how Nissan's

trying to fight it and how the plaintiff team is coming back at Nissan and saying, no, this

is a dangerous issue and they're actually going after a piece of Massachusetts law which

allows this class action to move forward as long as it is a dangerous defect which could

cause harm or injury to the drivers or other people around them.

And that's what got this one continuing to move forward was because the judge said, hey,

if that transmission fails and they're driving, that car could lock up on the road.

They could get into a big accident.

It could hurt themselves.

They could hurt people surrounding them.

So no Nissan.

You need to address this and you need to go ahead and figure out if this is an issue.

Get it fixed and pay for it because the plaintiff in this lawsuit spent $3,500 fixing their

transmission when their car was chugging along and traffic and they were having a lot of

problems and she's not the only one.

I mean we've received, received a ton of comments from people with Nissan vehicles complaining

of the exact same problem from Altimas to Pathfinders.

So this is a, a large issue that I think Nissan's going to end up paying a lot for in the end

as long as this class action continues on the current trend.

Yeah.

Let me go ahead and add another comment there to you.

I drive a Nissan Pathfinder.

I have been having since, since I bought the vehicle, which was used.

Just a shaking issue every now and then for no apparent reason.

At first, you know, I'd looked it up online.

People said, oh, well it usually happens with the brakes.

Okay.

I had my brakes replaced.

They needed to be replaced.

Didn't fix the problem.

They said, check the steering column.

Took it in, had my steering column checked.

No problem at all.

They said maybe your tires are old.

Okay, got new tires, needed new tires anyway.

Still having the problem as recently as my drive to work this morning and it has been

driving me crazy because I couldn't get anybody to, that could figure out what happened to

it.

And then, you know, we're sitting here, I read through this story and it was one of

those light bulb moments where I thought, oh my God, here is yet another story that

you and I are sitting here talking about that, oh my God, I'm pretty sure I have this.

Now, I can't say for certain that this is what it is.

But based on reading what's happening to this young woman's car, what's happening to other

people in the comments, this seems like a very widespread issue.

A lot more than Nissan would like us to think.

And I can promise you I'm going to be going through and pulling all of my service records

where I've had this looked at.

The work I have had done thinking that, that would fix this problem, and I will be right

there to sign up for this should we find out that Nissan was lying about this defective

transmission and this problem it was causing.

Yeah, and I, I would encourage you to please do so.

I'm glad that you, that we caught your attention on this and we'll be able to fight it because

even though they're, they're arguing right now under Massachusetts implied warranty law.

It is a federal case and so I know that some of the lawyers that are actually trying this

case.

I have met with them.

We've worked in other cases and they are bulldogs as most successful class action attorneys

are.

And even though this is just an Altima case right now, exactly what you're experiencing,

once this thing settles out and through the discovery process, we'll find out what other

cars this transmission is used in.

Where that transmission was made and could that same potential, potentially alleged manufacturing

defect in the transmission be in cars.

Like you were like the Pathfinder and other Nissan models.

And so it will be very interesting as this things progressing through the court system.

And we, we hit that discovery and we find out, oh, you know, this could be a very, very,

very big issue and hopefully even if we just settle this one for the Altimas, if we see

more class actions filed for, like you and the Pathfinders, that those will settle fairly

quickly if they're all having the exact same issue.

Absolutely.

And again, this is something I will personally be paying very close attention to.

And, and just so people understand, I love my Pathfinder.

You know, it actually gets pretty good gas mileage.

It fits my whole family.

I have a very large family.

I like it.

I just don't want it to be dangerous.

So if we can get this thing fixed, I have no problem holding onto that vehicle for as

long as possible, but I don't want to come out of pocket for it if this were something

that Nissan new was going to happen and chose to not fix.

And I think that kind of goes for most consumers in really any case.

It's not that we hate what we have, we just don't like being taken advantage of because

corporations wanted to make a little bit more money by not fixing something they knew was

an issue.

And if you're like me and you think this may apply to you, I encourage you, please check

out the link in the description below this video, go to topclassactions.com and again,

look around the website, sign up for their newsletter because I cannot tell you and I'm

not kidding how many times I've come across products I have signed up for because I know

I have been a victim of this as well.

The number would shock you.

There are settlements out there waiting for people.

Do not miss your opportunity to join in if you have been affected by any of them.

Scott Hardy with topclassaction.com, thank you very much for talking with us.

Thank you Farron.

Good luck with your Pathfinder.

Thank you.

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10 Most Overhyped Rap Songs II - Duration: 16:52.

So before we get into this video, my twin CDTVThaG who I have a deep, deep hatred for

has asked me to plug his channel to congratulate him for hitting his 50k subscriber milestone.

He threatened me by saying he would delete my channel when I wasn't looking if I didn't

plug it, so yeah, link to his channel in the description.

But with that being said, it's time for a follow up to my Most Overhyped Rap Songs

list.

There were a couple songs I really forgot to include on there, and just so many more

that I wanna talk about.

Remember to keep in mind that I don't even dislike a fair few of the songs on this list,

they're just songs that I can't get into as much as most other people can, in other

words, I think they're overrated.

So with that being said, this is the better half of the CDTV twins, and let's get right

into this list.

10 - Lil Yachty "66" (feat.

Trippie Redd)

This was the most popular song on Lil Boat 2 in terms of Spotify streams, and it's

not even close.

The nearest one is NBAYOUNGBOAT, which still has 20 million less plays.

Now, I heavily disliked Lil Boat 2 and I still think there's at least 5-7 songs on there

that are better than 66.

The song is all about Yachty becoming rich, set against this dreamy, angelic type of beat.

So far so good, but then we get to his actual voice on here and I just don't think the

delivery matches the message or low key celebratory tone of the song.

He just sounds like he's in the booth, closed off, and looking down at his feet as he raps.

Sometimes he just sounds nervous or unconfident for some reason, and that works on some tracks

where he's being the innocent, goofy Yachty, but not when he's trying to flex his success.

As for Trippie, he gets points for not screeching at all when he sings here, but nothing about

his performance is all that special to me on this one.

Really nice beat, but overall I don't think Yachty or Trippie do all that much to enhance

it.

9 - Lil Wayne "A Milli"

Everyone who's heard of Lil Wayne will at least somewhat recognise this track, it was

one of Wayne's earliest big hit songs, going double platinum and making multiple reputable

lists as one of the best tracks of 2008.

I can respect that this track was a big milestone in Wayne's career, but it's never really

been a song that I like.

There's 2 big issues for me as far as this song goes; first, that goddamn sample on the

beat.

Don't get me wrong, it's a cool use of a sample and it's nicely put together, but

it just doesn't stop.

It nearly runs throughout the whole track and it's insanely distracting.

I'd like it so much better if it only played during the hook portion of the song, but it

gets irritating hearing it loop constantly for 3 minutes.

The other issues for me is the fact that I'm simply not a huge fan of Wayne's Carter

III era voice.

It has this ever shifting, uncontrolled and strained sound to it that's never appealed

to me, and that combined with the instrumental makes this a track that is more off-putting

to me than anything.

Personally I think the looped sample thing was executed much better on Wayne's 6 Foot

7 Foot.

8 - Notorious B.I.G "Hypnotize"

And here we go jumping straight into another track that's held in very high regard by

many rap fans.

And trust me, I don't downright hate this track or anything, but every time the song

comes on I just tune out.

Biggie's flow is great as always and the way he switches it up so effortlessly is really

slick, but the overall sound of this track is what makes it not very enjoyable to me

personally.

It's probably the one I find the hardest to explain on this list, there's not too

much I can point out as being an issue, but I guess the beat isn't that appealing to

my tastes on this one.

The kind of groovy bassline the track revolves around works for what its going for, but I've

never been a fan of these more stripped down, groovy rap beats.

Layered, detailed production is always gonna be way more interesting to me, and I think

that's maybe where my issue with this one lies.

Biggie is incredible for sure, but I've never loved Hypnotize.

7 - Childish Gambino "This Is America"

Now is a good time to say this again; I don't think all the songs on this list are bad.

Because this isn't a bad song, and there's a few things I love about it.

The themes behind it?

Brilliant.

The overall message Gambino is presenting?

Great.

The music video that goes along with the song?

Easily one of my favourite music videos of 2018.

But take away the music video, and I actually think the song standing by itself isn't

that interesting sonically.

That's really the big issue here, if I listen to this without the music video, it becomes

10 times less gripping and encapsulating, and we're focusing on this purely as a song

in this list.

It honestly has very little replay value to me without the visuals.

I even presented this opinion on The Rap Critics 10 best songs of The year list, saying exactly

what I just said, and of course a fair few responses were along the lines of "you just

don't understand the themes and that's why you don't like it"... even though

the themes and message are the exact parts I singled out as liking.

And that's why I think this song is overhyped.

No matter what the reason is for you not loving it, there's always gonna be an army of people

who say it's because you "just don't get it".

Gambino always has great concepts, so I'm not just gonna enjoy his songs on a concept

alone.

6 - Lil Uzi Vert "Money Longer"

Lil Uzi Vert is someone I've called a bad rapper, in my opinion of course, on numerous

occasions.

However, that is an opinion that's changed a little bit over time, certain songs and

projects have become a lot more enjoyable to me as time has passed.

But Money Longer, one of his biggest hits, is one that I've never really felt the appeal

of.

Like I've always found that even on songs where I don't like the verses, Uzi has some

really memorable hooks that sound good, but the one on this track has this weird rhythm

and kinda off kilter flow to it that really throws me off.

It's not exactly off beat, but I just feel like Uzi's flow and cadence during the hook

sounds so awkward against the notes the melody of the instrumental is hitting.

It's almost like he's going a little bit too fast compared to the beat and he doesn't

wait for it to catch up before rapping his next chunk of bars.

Every time I listen it instantly kills the vibe of the track for me, and the verses aren't

really anything special so they don't save the song for me either.

As I said, Uzi May have grown on me recently, but I don't know if this song ever will.

5 - Travis Scott "Sicko Mode" (feat.

Drake & Swae Lee)

This song has half a billion streams on Spotify and it's only been out for less than 6 months.

It's safe to say, it's loved by a lot of people.

However, there is one simple reason why my enjoyment of this song isn't proportional

to its popularity; as you probably know, there's 3 different beats on Sicko Mode, and I really

really don't like the second one or how Travis's voice works with it, and because

of that I feel like that segment lasts way too long.

I just find the first and last instrumentals are so much better than that second one.

Something about the way the bass jabs sound during it comes off as almost a little obnoxious

and that is off-putting.

It's a big obstruction in the song to me, because I love the way it kicks off, the intro

almost has this dramatic sound to it.

Then the first beat switch occurs and I have to sit through nearly 2 minutes that I don't

like until we get to the second beat switch and the song becomes much more enjoyable again.

I guess there is a risk when you have so many different instrumentals on one song, not everyone

is gonna like all of them, and that is the issue I have with this one.

It's honestly not even in the top 5 songs from Astroworld for me, but I know there's

a lot of people that would disagree.

4 - Future "Where Ya At" (feat.

Drake)

Now I feel like it takes a fairly good lyricist to build almost all of a song around one phrase

and keep it enjoyable for a whole song, but to me Future & Drake just aren't the guys

for that.

As the song name hints towards, this track revolves around the phrase "where your *** was

at", and Future's delivery and flow is so uniform here that at first it's kinda

hard to tell where the chorus ends and where the first verse starts.

The sound and the structure is practically the same.

And like I said the song really revolves around that phrase, with 35 out of the 64 bars on

the track starting with "where your *** was at", and like I said Drake & Future really

don't work with this in any type of exciting way, just rambling through their verses about

people who only wanna be around them cause they're popular now.

Drake does have a couple lines that are kinda funny or well put together on here, but apart

from that it's a very flat, monotone offering.

No doubt one of the weaker tracks from the best Future album I've heard so far.

3 - Rae Sremmurd "Swang"

I love Rae Sremmurd, and I mostly love Swae Lee's high pitched vocals but sometimes

man, sometimes they just reach the point of sounding laughable, and that is the case with

Swang.

What even is that?

On the older Rae Sremmurd tracks, Swae really seemed to go super high pitched while managing

to just stay outside of the "sounding ridiculous" field.

This isn't an example of that.

And the worst part is, when he does tone down his vocals here, he tones them down so much

to a sleep inducing monotone style of rapping, I legit can't win with the deliveries on

here.

The beat doesn't even save this one for me, i might even go as far as saying it's

one of the driest beats on SremmLife 2.

The only thing I do like on this track is the Slim Jxmmi verse, he comes in with that

same turnt up energy that he always has, but it's not enough to save this track from

being bad.

When I first heard the album this came from, I genuinely thought this song wouldn't perform

well at all, but fast forward and it's one of Rae Sremmurd's most popular songs.

I really don't know how.

2 - Drake "Nonstop"

Now... this is a bit of an embarrassing one to talk about, because it reminds me of when

I completely butchered what would've been a hilarious joke.

But Drake's sons name isn't Adidon.

I messed up.

BUT I STILL STAND BY WHAT I SAID SO LET ME FIX THAT MOMENT.

Nonstop has such a dead beat that I'm surprised it doesn't have a son named Adonis.

Redeemed.

And that wasn't just a joke for the sake of it, I do find the beat for this song to

be very boring, consisting of not much more than the low hum of the bassline and a standard

Tay Keith drum pattern.

Compound that with Drake's monotone rapping and unvarying flow and it results in a really

dry song, with a couple lines that just hurt my soul every time I hear them.

But despite that, it's still a number 1 hit single and the song with the second highest

amount of streams on this list.

It's an incredibly popular song, but for me it's probably one of the most boring

ones from Scorpion, which in itself is a pretty bland album already.

I also just realized Drake has appeared on this list 3 times, I promise I don't hate

him, he's just involved in a lot of overrated songs I guess.

1 - Sheck Wes "Mo Bamba"

I'm sure some of you saw this one coming, as I've made my feelings on this track quite

clear before.

As far as I'm concerned Mo Bamba is the reason that world peace still has not been

achieved yet.

If World War 3 happens, I'm fully convinced that this song will be the catalyst.

But why do I dislike it so much?

Well, let's start with that horribly dragged out flow by Sheck that he uses for most of

the song.

I will never find that catchy or appealing, it's just aggravating.

It's also ironic on this song how he says when he only showcases like 2 different ones

on this track.

Wrong song to say that on Shecky.

The best part of the track is his ad libs cause they're pretty energetic, and that

part where he gets super hyped up, but that's nowhere near enough to save the song from

being awful for me.

A lot of people point to the beat as one of the reasons why they enjoy this song, but

even then I don't think the beat is anything too amazing, it's just alright.

And don't get me wrong, I have nothing against Sheck, I actually enjoy a lot of his Mudboy

album and Live Sheck Wes is a track that truly displays Sheck's energy, that one is great.

But Mo Bamba is most certainly not, and how it's not only the biggest hit from Sheck's

album, but is also one of the biggest songs of 2018 is something that I will never be

able to comprehend.

And that, that is why Mo Bamba takes the number 1 spot on this list.

(Outro)

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Learning to Love Yourself - Duration: 11:03.

Hey so it's been a little bit since I posted a video I know I start every

video by saying that but it's always true hopefully not for much longer

though a lot of things have changed since my last video I'm in a different

apartment still in Brooklyn I have much longer hair um and I actually have a

plan for YouTube so that's wild I think I needed a little break to reflect on

what I want to do with this channel 'cause a lot of times I feel like I'm

pressuring myself into making stuff that I don't really feel competent enough to

make um I don't feel knowledgeable enough to make and then I started

thinking maybe I didn't want to make videos anymore and then I started

thinking like that would make me really sad because this is the community I

really care about but I'm looking to create more of a

community around my videos and that's kind of the thing that is disheartening

about my channel right now is that I don't have the community I want to be

able to talk about the things that I want to talk about I am hoping to focus

my channel a little bit more to be about mental health and things related to

mental health and just kind of like self compassion and all that stuff because

it's something I'm interested in something I am you know learning so that

I can be a mental health professional in the future hopefully and it's something

I just really care about and I really feel like is useful to talk about and

useful to hear different experiences and what works for people that kind of stuff

especially because I feel like a lot of the conversations around mental health

either discuss in way too much depth like all the suffering that happens with

mental illness and just with the struggling in general or it's simplified

so much and it's kind of looked at with like rose-colored glasses where it's

like everything will be okay even if you feel bad and sometimes it's just that

doesn't sink in and sometimes you need to be a little bit more real that's what

I'm gonna try to do now and so if there's anything you

want me to talk about anything you feel like you need advice on whatever you can

comment and tell me you can tweet me you can follow me on patreon and I'll answer

very specific questions you have if you give me a little bit of money every

month so in a kind of a broad overview of what I want my channel to look like

this year I want to talk about self-love Wow I know when people like your friends

or your parents or some random person on YouTube it's like just love yourself

you're like, bitch it's not that easy and it's not so I don't want to be the

person sitting here and just being like being happy is so simple is loving

yourself 'cause listen, we're not brought up in a way that supports us loving

ourselves we are brought up in a society that is constantly weighing us down and

telling us we're not good enough and telling us that we have to you know kick your

own ass all the time and it sucks and that's what we're, you know, conditioned

with so I'm not gonna sit here until you things you've already heard I just want

to talk about my own experience and where I'm at I was fairly depressed in

my childhood years for lots of reasons and it has exhibited itself in different

ways at different times it was just this feeling of like dread and feeling like I

wasn't good enough and just hating myself and not even really having the

words to explain that but just being so unhappy with who I was obviously I'm

still in the process of working on self-love and being compassionate with

myself but I'm at such a better place with it that I used to be and I really

do feel like when I work on myself now and I try to better myself as a person

it's coming from a place of knowing that I love myself and knowing that I like

deserve that compassion with myself and I think part of that comes from relying

more on reassurance from myself than from other people and relying more on

what I think of myself than what other people think of me and a lot of that

came from switching the way that I think

about myself I used to conceptualize myself as only being as good as I felt I

impacted other people like if I perceived that someone didn't care about

me which was already just in my head um that meant I wasn't worth love from

myself or from other people and then I realized like that's not what it's about

I have more worth than I think I'm worth to other people and it's great to have

people around you who make you feel cared for but it's really hard to feel

that when you don't actually believe it yourself and that's not something that

other people can fix by liking you or caring about you are validating you

that's something like you have to figure out on your own and you have to work

on on your own and you really have to sit there and say

like I want to be my own best friend I want to support myself because sometimes

I'm the only person I can count on when my brain is doing ridiculous shit and

part of it is just looking past the kind of like romanticization of hating

yourself because we really have that where we're like how I hate myself it's

not cool it sucks if you really feel that way about yourself but it's not

something you should like be content with and brag about and like make a joke

about I think like actually caring about yourself and working on yourself feeling

compassion for yourself like that's the cool thing guys so that's kind of this

part of what I want this video to be is just being like hey guys

self-love is cool it's hard to accomplish it's something that you know

I think all of us are gonna be working on for the rest of our lives but it's

good and I think when you finally reach a point like you don't even really

realize when it happens but you reach a point where you care so deeply for

yourself and you like sit back and you're like damn like I really do think

I love myself that's different and I think there are different ways that you

can achieve that and part of that is just not relying on other people to

instill it in you because that's out how it works

and I think some of it is just really training yourself to

hear the thoughts in your own head and stop and be like that's not okay we

don't say that it doesn't make me feel good to say that in more recent years

what has been a source of hatred for myself has been invalidating my own

feelings thinking like Oh like I'm bad because I feel these things that's

something I want to talk about in a later video because like man I've had

some revelations figuring that shit out and that's something where when I

started being like why am I like this like this isn't how normal people act

like I wouldn't be doing this if I were a good person that's when you need to

train yourself to recognize that you're thinking those things and then respond

to them be like no it's okay it's okay and kind of like accepting yourself for

who you are and how you feel things and you know what triggers you you have to

truly understand where things are coming from I thought the answer to stopping

hating myself and being a happy person and overcoming depression or whatever

was you have to understand the problem and then you have to fix it

Wow this I'm not even saying this ironically like that was a big shock and

maybe everyone already knew that that's not healthy and that's not the way to

approach things but I didn't know that and it was like wild to me that I have

to fix feelings gonna have to be like you know how do I get this to stop

here's why it's happening here's why it shouldn't be happening and here's how

I'm gonna fix it like you you can just be like okay I'm feeling this thing and

I'm gonna take care of myself and I'm gonna strive to take care of myself

instead of striving to correct myself and I think once you do that and once

you learn how to take care of yourself the way you want others so take care of

you that's when you start really loving yourself and really understanding

yourself and really appreciating yourself and your own feelings and your

own experiences everyone has their own shit and once you understand that about

yourself and I understand that that doesn't mean you're you know worthless

or whatever you kind of like radiate that feeling of like it

acceptance and it feels good to like live in that and obviously this doesn't

mean that I don't get insecure and this doesn't mean that I don't you know beat

myself up sometimes but it's knowing how to react to that instead of just

wallowing this is really the first time in a long time I have like looked at

myself and been like yeah I'm like I like this girl

anytime I sit back and really like look at myself regardless of how I'm feeling

or what I'm going through I can see that I'm still good even in situations like

I'm in now where I kind of feel lonely and helpless and confused these

circumstances don't say anything about Who I am

because I already know that these circumstances are separate and they

don't represent anything about my internal being not everything is solved

and you're still gonna feel bad sometimes and you're still gonna be

insecure but it makes dealing with those feelings so much easier I hope that was

helpful I hope that made literally any sense and I hope that wasn't just me

like rattling things off on the eve hurt a million times

if it was my bet again if there's anything you want me to talk about let

me know I will try to incorporate it in some videos I also have a patreon which

allows you to give a monthly payment to me can be anywhere from like an 1/2 you

know however much money you want to spend and it just takes that out your

account monthly and helps support me in being a college student who's also trying

to make videos and help people and there are some cool perks that you can get and

that's the kind of stuff that like really motivates me cuz it's people who

are invested and see you like purpose in what I'm doing if nothing else it

just puts pressure on me to create things cuz that's what people are

supporting me for so if you want to join that the link will be on the screen and

in the description or something i don't remember

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