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We're now just a couple weeks away from the midterm elections. The latest round of polling

show the Democrats hold about a ten point lead in generic ballots, so it's pretty clear

at this point ... And it could change in the next two weeks. Anything is possible, but

it's kind of clear that Democrats ... Gonna win at least back the House.

Here's the thing though. These midterms are going to be decided by women here in the United

States. Not just white women. They overwhelmingly voted for Donald Trump. But all women of all

ages. Women are the ones who hold the keys to this year's midterms, and whatever they

decide to do is the direction this country is going to go in. And right now, it's looking

like more and more women, those in the Republican party, have decided to abandon ship because

they can no longer support this backwards, discriminatory Republican party that we have

in place today.

Recently in the L.A. Times, two different letters to the editor by prominent Republican

women, one of whom actually was the Political Director for George H. W. Bush's presidential

campaign ... They've said they can't take it anymore. They're done. They've had enough

of the Republican party, and the tipping point for them was the confirmation of Brett Kavanaugh

to the United States Supreme Court.

These women are not alone. We know that the majority of people in this country did not

want Brett Kavanaugh sitting on the US Supreme Court. Most of the people who said they didn't

want him on the US Supreme Court happened to be women.

This is not going to end well for the Republican party. When you have more and more Republicans

coming out each week, specifically female Republicans, coming out and saying "I can't

do this anymore. This isn't what I signed up for. This isn't the party I grew up with.

This isn't the party I supported and helped elect," and they say, "I'm done. I'm walking

away. I'm giving my vote to the Democrats, because at least they seem to understand that

women should be equal to men." The Republican party hasn't gotten that memo, and as we've

seen from their dismissal of the accusations against Brett Kavanaugh, the demonization

of the women who accused him of this kind of behavior, and the sham of an investigation

that the White House personally ham stringed from the FBI, they understand what's going

on.

The Republican party doesn't care about women, and I know there have been plenty of stories

on the other side, too, saying that there are women out there, Trump-supporting, Republican-loving

women who say that these women were just seeking attention. They love Brett Kavanaugh, they

love Trump, and they love the Republican party, and they are red until they're dead basically

is what they're telling us.

But the reason those stories get so much attention and so much traction is because those are

the outliers. The women out there who are saying "I fear for my sons being falsely accused

of sexual assault," that's not the norm. Those are the people who don't understand what's

going on, and luckily they are in a minority right now, but the Democrats need to understand

that they cannot take these defecting women for granted. We have to offer them something

as a party, as a platform. Something that they can latch onto and say, "You know what?

I do agree with you on more than just you're not a Republican." That's what the party has

to offer.

It's likely the Democrats are going to win in this year's midterms. I mean, that's kind

of a given at this point. But if they don't offer voters ... Women, men, black, white,

Hispanic, Muslim, gay, straight, whatever it is ... If they don't offer them something

tangible, something material in their platform, then all the votes they get this year are

going to be one-time outliers, and two years from now will be right back to Republicans

controlling every branch of government.

Women will decide this year's midterms, but it's up to the Democratic party to decide

whether or not they're going to do anything to actually help these women.

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Nat & Alex Wolff on 'Stella's Last Weekend' & Working as a Family | MTV News - Duration: 6:11.

- [Interviewer] Can you ever have

secrets in the Wolff family?

- No, you're kind of always, you know.

There's a scene in Noah Baumbach's first movie

where they're having a breakup and he's like,

I'm writing this for my play,

and she's like I'm writing this for my play.

(laughing)

And that's kind of how it is in our house.

(upbeat guitar music)

- Baby, meet the gang.

This is everyone I love, and Ron.

- Actually me and Jack met last year at a party.

- She never called me back.

- Nat's one of my favorite actors,

my mom was one of my favorite actors, objectively.

So then you automatically want to work, and you know

you're gonna do a really good job.

- We convinced my mom to be in it.

- Yeah, she was trying to get Logan Lerman--

- She was getting different - And a bunch of different

people and then we just kind of talked her into it.

- I was saying we convinced her to play the part of the mom

because-- - Oh.

(laughing)

- She was trying to get Logan Lerman.

- That's what I was saying.

(laughing)

It would have been great if my mom made us audition.

- [Nat] Yeah that would have been awesome.

- [Alex] There would have been a whole process

and do like chemistry reads and stuff.

But she originally, initially,

did not want to play the part of the mom.

- [Nat] And we convinced her to do it.

- [Alex] Because there's nobody who's gonna do this part

better, I mean it's written for her.

I think my mom wanted to, thinking maybe

she'd focus more on being behind the camera

but she managed to do both

like maybe better because each one informed the other.

- And also the dynamic is just so, I mean,

we've been a family since we were born so.

- We've been a family for a while now.

- We've been studying being a family like Daniel Day-Lewis

since we were kind of born.

(laughing)

We've been in character.

- It's interesting how we've grown up

in the same house, same thing, we have the same DNA,

same parents, and all these things,

but we still have these different ways

of getting to sort of things and it's really inspiring.

- But Alex and I have also been working,

we've been working together our entire lives.

I mean we've never stopped working,

we've been doing music together,

I've acted in short films, you know what I mean.

We're constantly working together and we're

constantly in each others space.

- [Interviewer] Also when you're on set

your mom is your director but she's also your mom,

what's that kind of relationship like?

- [Nat] Weirdly it's like the best we've ever gotten along.

- She's not my mom, I don't know if she's my mom

100%, I know she was his mom.

But then everyone was like-- - she's definitely my mom

and she's probably his mom. - Definitely my mom,

she's probably mine.

- We're not--

- My dad was crazy in the 80s, I don't know.

- Weren't you born in '97?

- Yeah but he was just crazy in the 80s,

I just want to throw that out there.

Completely separate note.

- He definitely chilled out in the 90s.

- Definitely chilled out in the 90s

so it's most, she's most likely--

- Kind of irrelevant to what we're talking about

just wanted to talk about--

- [Alex] My dad was so cool in the 80s.

There was something about this movie

where it was nice to kind of,

it kind of hearkened back to doing The Naked Brothers Band

when we were kids, you know, because it was just nice

to have our mom there sort of--

- Corralling us and putting us in

the best possible position.

But then also like when my mom would be doing scenes

we'd have like Alex at the monitor, me at the monitor

like, because she'd say can you watch just to make sure

because she'd have to be acting in it.

- Like mom, maybe do it like one not,

and she's like yeah yeah, just like one more,

yeah of course.

And then now it's like, 'cause you know,

I'm like yeah well that makes sense because--

- But Alex and I, I mean we don't have to talk,

we don't have to say anything.

It's like we get done with a take

and we're like ugh, you know?

- Jesus Christ.

- Fucking bullshit, let's do this again,

you know?

Or then it's like.

Or I'm like, hey can you,

and he's like I know, I got it I got it.

- Yeah.

- Or Alex he's like, you know that thing where?

I'm like fuck, right right right.

We played a concert yesterday and

we got into a fight about whether Alex was gonna play

the drum part straight or anticipated.

But we just, it just, it was one of those things

where it just kind of somehow escalated

and we were like screaming at each other.

And then we were screaming at each other,

my dad turned his head and he was laughing.

- [Alex] He was laughing so hard.

- And then we storm off into our perspective rooms

of our parents' apartment, and my brother texts me--

- I text him, you up?

It was midday, I just said, you up?

- I hear a lot of families talk about how, you know,

especially a lot of fathers and sons

will talk about baseball.

You know, or sports and things like that.

Or they have, or their car or you know,

there's things that you know, sometimes you find in common,

you know denominator, things to talk about with your family

that make you, that maybe seem like surface level

but over time it kind of takes on a lot of meaning.

- It goes deep, yeah.

- I think we've just been really lucky that as a family

we're all so passionate about music and film.

And now my parents sit in bed

and watch all the new TV shows like Goliath

and so they're super passionate about--

- Really passionate about it too.

And we hear about it, and I think it's like

a really good, and I also think that something

interesting about my mom's movie and then my movie happening

is it's almost like, my dad did the score for my mom's movie

and it's almost like that movie is almost their perception

of us and it's almost like my movie's more like,

because really I used a lot of my dad's music.

Like he didn't do the actual score,

instead it was more like I was using his music.

So it was almost like my perception of like him

and to kind of, almost like an idolizing thing,

perception of who he is.

And I think it's kind of cool to get those totally different

perspectives. - And for some reason

our dad is dead in both movies.

- Yeah, for some.

In mine it's really messed up and tragic.

And my mom's actually is him being sick when

my dad actually was sick, so.

- And our dad did, in like the end of 2014,

2015 he had a really really tough battle with cancer.

- [Alex] So I don't think it's a mystery

that there's a lot of father,

you know because it was a fear.

- And it was really, this movie was very cathartic

in the way that we had kind of been through hell and back

with our dad and then he miraculously got better

and there was a lot of being split apart

and then kind of coming back together for the family.

And somehow this movie was like a perfect venue

or avenue for all those feelings

and really it was, somebody asked was it really upsetting

doing a movie that was so close to home?

Even though it's a comedy, you know it is a comedy,

we're making it sound like it's like,

some super depressing movie.

But there is kind of an undercurrent of that.

And so it's almost like to me, it's the most meaningful

movie I've ever been a part of.

- This is a family project.

Like we all were involved in it, all denotes,

and it's just shameless.

And so we're just like, this is us

and we don't feel bad about it.

- People who hang out with us, even our parents,

they always feel like they're third wheeling.

- They get frustrated.

- You know, anybody who's with us

feels like they're third wheeling,

because we'll just go like (gibberish)

we come up with this own, you know,

we have our own language.

- It's Japanese is our own language.

We actually speak Japanese.

- So anybody who speaks Japanese doesn't feel like

they're third wheeling.

- Ah shit.

(slow electronic music)

For more infomation >> Nat & Alex Wolff on 'Stella's Last Weekend' & Working as a Family | MTV News - Duration: 6:11.

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Standing up to Doctors to Go off Crohn's Disease Medication | WellBe Inspiration, Episode #18 Part 2 - Duration: 1:50.

I'm Courtney Maiorino and I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease in 2012.

Upon diagnosis, I was put on immunosuppressants and steroids.

I've also been on biologic infusion medications also.

The immunosuppressants I had been on from 2012 until 2018,

gave me a drug-induced liver injury

and they wanted me to try a different medication.

It was the last medication that I was on.

I have been on meds since 2012 and I was finally this close to the goal

that I've had since then of being med-free and they were like,

"We want to try you on something else,"

and I was like, "No."

To sit there in front of people who are well-intentioned,

and who are well-educated and knowledgeable, and

they only want what's best, to tell them, "No,"

this is a battle for me every single day

that I have in my head. Am I doing the right thing?

And so when I told them that I wasn't going on any more meds

and that I was going to trust my gut on this one,

I mean, I got into my car after my appointment and I started crying.

It was huge, it's huge and it's scary every single day

to not have a backup,

but it's also like I couldn't come out of that appointment

knowing that I had a chance to try it, and not try.

And so, so far we're good. I feel great.

I'm on no meds.

As long as I think I continue on this path of both maintenance in what I'm currently doing

and continued exploration in other avenues and things that could potentially be healing for me,

I think it's going to stay that way.

For more infomation >> Standing up to Doctors to Go off Crohn's Disease Medication | WellBe Inspiration, Episode #18 Part 2 - Duration: 1:50.

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Healing Crohn's Disease with Diet and Mind, not Meds | WellBe Inspiration, Episode #18 - Duration: 21:12.

I'm Courtney Maiorino and I'm born and raised here in Maine, Portland.

I have Crohn's disease and I was officially diagnosed in 2012.

When I first got diagnosed, I didn't really change anything.

I was dropped into the world of wellness back in college.

I was trying to go into a nursing program here at a local college

and wasn't making the grades I needed to get in,

and so I transferred into a major involving wellness

because it was the one that would take most of my credits so I could graduate on time.

And so the universe kind of did me a solid on that one without me even knowing.

I studied wellness, nutrition, lifestyle management.

I also have a minor in holistic health and integrative medicine,

and I'm Master Reiki certified.

Learning all of that constantly, I kind of got a spark at some point in my college career

where I was studying that I could use it on myself

and see that if this works for healthy people, why couldn't it work for me?

So I just started changing things.

I didn't change everything at once.

I did one thing and then solidified it and made it work and then moved on.

First was my eating style. I switched that a million times until I found what worked.

I went gluten-free and then dairy-free and then cut out of all kinds of other things,

and now I found that a plant-based diet, also being gluten-free as well, works for me.

It allows me to not only eat what I enjoy, what makes me feel good but

get really great results in terms of my lab work.

And then after I did the food stuff and switched all of that,

I kind of dove a little bit deeper.

I did a lot of perspective shifting for me.

I was a very angry patient early on.

I was mad myself, mad at the world.

I was not a fun person to be around

and I think the anger and the resentment is very common in the chronic illness community

and why wouldn't it be? I mean, our lives are changing

without us even having any awareness of how it's going to change

and how much it's going to affect our lives.

But a mentor of mine, her name is Jessica Flanigan, she wrote The Loving Diet.

It talks about not only an eating style but

the perspective shift that needs to occur with people who live with chronic illness

and learning from your disease and loving what it's teaching you and all these things.

Really, shifting my mindset was the next step that I took

in living well with Crohn's.

I think that that's one of the things that's helped me the most.

Food obviously has helped me decrease inflammation,

but coming from a perspective of love and

being a student of life with Crohn's has really changed my life

and I feel like that's one of the most important things that people can kind of

try and change first.

If your mindset's not right,

if you don't feel like you're deserving of healing and health

and an amazing life full of energy and the ability to go out and eat and have fun with friends,

then any small tweak that you try and make to your food

or to your stress management or your exercise routine,

they're not going to stick.

I started with things that were easier for me to change

and easier for me to understand and as I kind of travel along this journey,

I'm being called to learn deeper lessons and implement deeper change.

And so now I'm learning a lot about energy work

and how stored emotions and limiting beliefs and

energy in our bodies, how that affects illness and how that affects how it manifests,

and kind of figuring out how that relates to the autoimmune disease community

and so I can bring that perspective back to them and hopefully help them

not only understand the concept and the idea behind it,

but also implement it into their own lives just

because it's something that people aren't talking about.

I had symptoms from 2009 to 2012.

Usually, autoimmune disease patients, as everyone who's watching this knows,

you go without a diagnosis for a while.

Unfortunately it's a pretty common occurrence.

I saw a lot of regular GI doctors.

I was put on a lot of steroids, a lot of immunosuppressant drugs

and I thought that this was going to help because that's what we're told.

Doing just the Western medicine route didn't help me.

I don't know where this came from, but deep down in my being,

I don't even know how else to describe it,

I've always had a nudge to not really take medication.

I mean, when I had a headache when I was younger, I would refuse Tylenol.

When I had cramps, I would refuse Midol.

All these normal drugs that we take for everyday ailments,

I didn't take. When I was told that I had to be on a cocktail of steroids

and immunosuppressants for the rest of my life,

it obviously didn't sit well,

but I was so scared and I was so frightened and so like lost that I was like,

"Okay, this is going to help me. Fine, I'm going to do it."

I didn't have as much of a solid stance as I do now

in terms of how to help myself heal. I had no idea.

I did what I thought was best at the time.

I think my lowest point had to have been I was at college at the University of Maine at Orono

and I have had plenty of times where I would be across campus

and I would need to use the bathroom and I wouldn't make it.

For someone in general, that is mortifying, but for a female in college,

I couldn't even handle myself.

I was like, I don't even know what's going on

and I don't know how to help myself.

It was just constant not wanting to eat,

not wanting to put anything in my body

because I was so scared that whatever was going on with me

would be exacerbated by food.

Prior to me getting symptomatic and then officially diagnosed,

I had no knowledge that autoimmune was even in my family.

I was healthy. My parents were like normally healthy.

I've had obviously, I've had surgeries in the past but nothing chronic to deal with

and we had no thought that it would be something chronic.

We thought it would be like, "Oh, it's IBS," or "Oh, it's like something you ate,"

or "Oh, it's like stress." It's not something that's this serious

so we blew it off for a long time thinking that it wasn't.

After that first year of college, I did come back closer to home.

There's a local school, probably like 20 minutes from my house,

so I stayed at home.

When it got to a point that I literally couldn't eat anything

without running to the bathroom half an hour later,

we knew something was wrong.

After we kind of got all the testing done and got an official diagnosis of Crohn's,

I was given, not an option, but I was given a cocktail of steroids

and immunosuppressant drugs and at the time,

I thought that was my only option.

I took them and thought that that was going to be

the magic pill that was going to make me feel better.

At that point in time, I didn't care about my body.

I thought I was taking care of myself.

We all do when we kind of go through stuff like that.

We assume that this is the best we can do.

When I was diagnosed officially, I kind of remember that day to this day.

I remember what my GI looked like, I remember my mom,

I remember me kind of groggily waking up from the scope.

I remember him saying to my mom that I had Crohn's

and I didn't know what that meant but I started crying because I was like,

I don't know what this is but it sounds really serious.

The steroids, I gained a lot of weight.

Unfortunate side effect of steroids.

I felt very self-conscious obviously because of the weight gain.

I felt, symptom-wise, I think I felt tiny bit better

I had some inner knowing that even though I felt better,

this wasn't as good as I could feel.

I felt self-conscious and sick and unhappy with my life.

The first think I switched kind of was food.

I grew up in an Italian family. My dad's Italian

and we had no shortage of pasta, bread, meatballs,

all of the great Italian food that people know.

I loved it growing up but as I got more aware of both my disease

and how to potentially manage it,

I was more aware of how food kind of affected me, made me feel

and I would think to myself, either while I was eating or after I ate, like wait,

either thisÐ I feel really great right now or I don't.

And so after a few more weeks of being aware of this, I cut out gluten.

Gluten was my first kind of thing that I chose to omit from my eating style.

I had a lot of brain fog once I made the connection and I kind of realized that,

"Oh, I can't focus," or "Oh, I can't remember things,"

and "I feel like I'm very spacey today,"

and it was a constant fog that was over me.

Gluten was my first thing that decided to no longer consume.

Carbs are my favorite and it was hard because for people,

not only Italians but I think people in general, we gather around food and

once you decide to eat differently,

that automatically makes you different and that's really hard.

After I decided to give up gluten, I decided to give up dairy too.

The final tweak that I made was no animal products at all.

I made a really steadfast personal decision to do what I had to do for myself,

and so that meant buying my own food sometimes and cooking my own meals

when everyone else at the table was eating the same thing,

which automatically makes me feel self-conscious.

In the back of my mind, I always had a dream and a goal to be medication free.

I had gained, maybe it was like 20 pounds in 6 weeks or something crazy,

and I'm only 5'2",

so I didn't have a lot of places to put it besides being really evident on my frame

and I was like, "I'm done."

If this is going to make me feel insane mentally,

because they can, and make me look so unlike myself,

I don't want to do it anymore.

And so I made a decision at that point to not take it.

I was still taking another oral med,

it was an immunosuppressant drug,

but the steroid I knew the side effects of it and I didn't want to have any of it anymore.

I took myself off of my first steroid.

I don't recommend it. It wasn't a good idea.

It was my first flare after being officially diagnosed.

Flares happen. It can be randomly, it can be triggered.

It can increase both intensity and frequency of symptoms.

It can also have extra intestinal manifestations of symptoms, mouth sores,

joint pain, swelling, randomly.

Definitely connected but doesn't seem like it's connected symptoms.

For me, it was just frequency and urgency and

just really feeling really like inflamed and gross.

My mom was seeing a holistic nurse practitioner at the time.

I was studying but then my mom was like, "You should see her.

She helped me through some female stuff that was unrelated to autoimmune stuff."

I saw her and she helped me. We took supplements, tons of them,

that I don't even remember what I was taking.

We really worked on healing my gut.

I was still taking one drug at the time but I was also working with her.

She definitely not only saved my life but changed the trajectory of my treatment.

I don't think I'd be this well off if I hadn't worked with her.

I had been taking Entocort which is a steroid which is the one I weaned myself off of

and

6-MP which is an immunosuppressant.

I had took those two when I first got diagnosed in 2012.

I had taken the immunosuppressant all the way up

until this past October.

I was on the drug a long time.

But there was also a period of time where when I was just on the 6-MP

that it wasn't enough.

I was like, "Oh, this is great. I'm doing wellness stuff.

I feel great," and I went to my GI for a checkup or blood work or something

and my markers were highÐ my inflammation markers.

He was like, "Okay, we're going to do a colonoscopy and see,"

and the pictures were not good.

They were ulcerated, they were swollen, they were inflamed. It was really bad.

He said, "You have two choices."

He said, "You can do an infusion medication, similar to chemo,

every 8 weeks

or you can have surgery."

I was like, "Crap,"

because I was like, "Oh, this is great. I'm doing wellness stuff.

This is going to help me. I'm going to be great,"

and I get this kind of bump in the road and I'm like, "Oh man,

I don'tÐ

okay." So I took Remicade for 2 years.

Remicade is a biologic medication infusion similar to a chemo drug.

Patients go into an office and get an IV

of medication and it goes directly into their bloodstream

and instead of taking it orally or self-injection or anything like that.

It's supposed to be more effective in that form and stronger and things like that

and I was going every 8 weeks for 2 years.

I was taking the Remicade and the immunosuppressant at the same time.

At that point, I was plant-based but I had a lot of mental anger still

and so I worked on that. I was doing tapping,

a little bit of yoga, a lot of deep breathing exercises,

really trying to kind of decrease the anxiety and anger of having Crohn's still.

The resentment and the anger is not something that goes away quickly.

You really have to work at it

and you really have to make a conscious awareness almost every second

to switch your mindset and be like, "Okay,

yes, this is the hand I'm dealt but one, what am I learning from it and two,

what's it bringing into my life that I'm not being consciously aware right now?"

While I was on those two drugs at the same time I was working on my mindset,

my perspective, really trying to help shift that because that was hard for me.

I think that was one of the hardest things that I've done so far to help myself

but every time somebody asks me what to do,

that's what I tell them to do first.

I was on Remicade and the immunosuppressants for 2 years

and then my plant-based lifestyle really kind of solidified

because I was still

being plant-based but I wasn't as solid in that lifestyle as I should've been to feel good.

Once I had made the commitment 100% to be plant-based

and not go back and forth and eat for comfort and not for health,

it made a difference.

In 2016, I had a colonoscopy and I was fully plant-based for a while at that point

and the colonoscopy came back completely clean.

I was on the immunosuppressant, the biologic drug

and I was plant-based and doing all these other things.

I sat down with my GI doctor

and he knows, we've had this conversation many times and I was like,

"I want to be med-free."

I was like, "I don't want to do Remicade anymore."

Because when I was told that I was going to be on this drug,

he's like, "You're going to be here for the rest of your life."

He told me that, my nurse told me that and I was like, "You won't see me.

I'll be here until I don't have to be here anymore.

I'm not doing this forever."

She didn't think that diet had anything to do with it.

She didn't think that anything that I was

beneficial or worked or she thought I was silly

but I was the only one in that infusion room who had absolutely no symptoms on the drug.

Everyone else still had other symptoms

that they were having and experiencing with the intensity of that drug.

After being on Remicade for 2 years,

I wrote a long letter

to both my GI doctor and my infusion nurse

and I told them, I was like,

"I understand where you're coming from.

I appreciate what you're doing.

I appreciate your knowledge and all that you've helped me do so far,

but I don't want to do this anymore."

I wrote out the diet that I eat,

the stress management tools that I use, the perspective that I have

and the fact that I can ultimately make my own decision.

That was really hard for me, standing really, really tall and really solid

up in front of a physician who's very knowledgeable and he does care

and wants what's best,

to go in a different direction than what he was recommending,

and also to have my friends and loved ones

and family be very nervous about the decision that I was about to make.

I still did it, and I've been off that for a year

and a couple of months now.

I was still on the immunosuppressant drug this whole time,

but recently, I was having weird symptoms.

I was not hungry which is not like me. I love food, I love to eat.

I had lower back pain.

I was very distended and bloated which made me nervous

because it could be a symptom of a flare up for Crohn's.

They're pretty common symptoms for people with Crohn's disease,

but it was very weird. I was like, it's nothing that I had ever felt before

and I hadn't had an appetite for

3 weeks.

I was like, "This is weird" so I called my doctor, my GI doctor,

and I was like, "Look, this is what's going on.

This is how I feel and I know it's not right."

I got blood work done every 2 weeks for a month, a month and a half

and my liver levels were increased.

They thought I had something else additionally wrong with me

and that was my liver and it wasn't attributed to anything Crohn's-related

and we did all these kinds of testing and blood work and imaging

and there was no cyst, there was noÐ nothing else wrong with my liver

and the last ditch effort was to do blood work to see if the medication was causing

issues with my liver.

The immunosuppressant that I had been on from 2012 until 2018, yeah,

gave me a drug-induced liver injury

and they wanted me to try a different medication.

It was the last medication that I was on.

I have been on meds since 2012 and I was finally this close to the goal

that I've had since then of being med-free and they were like,

"We want to try you on something else," and I was like,

"No."

And again, to sit there in front of people who are well-intentioned

and who are well-educated and knowledgeable and

they only want what's best, to tell them, "No,"

it's really hard and people, they message me all the time

and when they see me in person, they're like, "I can't believe you're on no meds."

And I was like, "This is a battle for me every single day

that I have in my head. Am I doing the right thing?"

And so when I told them that I wasn't going on any more meds

and that I was going to trust my gut on this one,

I mean, I got into my car after my appointment and I started crying.

It was huge, it's huge and it's scary every single day

to not have a backup

but it's also like I couldn't come out of that appointment

knowing that I had a chance to try it

and not try.

And so, so far we're good. I feel great. I'm on no meds.

As long as I think I continue on this path of both maintenance and what currently I'm doing,

and continued exploration in other avenues and things that could potentially be healing for me,

I think it's going to stay that way.

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Aries

professionally

Do not rely on promises made by the surroundings because they are just words, and rely on yourself to create a way of life and secure your future career

Emotionally

You want everything today at once without considering the circumstances of your lover or partner, accept reality so as not to expose your love to the cold

Taurus

professionally

Today is appropriate to settle all disputes with relatives, partners and friends and open a new page in social and professional relationships

Emotionally

Today you may receive support from your partner or lover that will make you happy and give you a push forward and make you create and accomplish important work

Gemini

professionally

Be careful and take care every step you take today in the field of work and the social environment and the project before you

Emotionally

A day of emotional comfort and comfort takes you with your partner or lover to the world of love and happiness

Cancer

professionally

Today some friends and relatives stand by you in the crisis you are going through and they are most fulfilled

Emotionally

Your partner or lover may pass a difficult period today and needs your help emotionally, morally and materially

The Lion Tower

professionally

You find that today is appropriate to establish new social relations that will benefit from the improvement of your professional status

Emotionally

Your emotions are lessened today and you are preoccupied with securing your future and moving away from your loved one or partner without committing a sin

Virgo

professionally

Do not take everything today in good faith because everyone around you thinks about its interests, and you have the distinction between white and gray, and realistic and fake speech

Emotionally

Today, your behavior is characterized by stubbornness and confrontation, which reflects positively on your relationship with the other party

Libra

professionally

Stands today at the crossroads and tries to find a short path to reach the goal you dream of achieving a long time ago

Emotionally

Today you may tend to isolate yourself from any social or emotional relationship, but the intervention of your lover or partner changes your outlook on things and brings warmth back to your heart.

Scorpio

Born in this tower On a day like this

the artist Salah al-Saadani

And the artist Kamal Abu Raya

And the artist ISAF

And informational Amr Adib

And the artist Ahmed Al Rubaie

And the artist Mohamed Wahid

professionally

Some difficulties obstruct what you want or wish to pursue in the direction of your goal relying on God

Emotionally

Today you may defend your privacy and independence very strongly. This bothers the other party and casts doubt on his thinking

Sagittarius tower

professionally

You face professional and practical challenges, think carefully about the means to win them, and prove that you are at the challenge to be more confident in your abilities

Emotionally

Surprised today strange and unusual behavior of the partner or beloved without a reason to know, talk and help him because he desperately needs love and kindness

Capricorn

professionally

Today you have a chance to get something very important, use your experience and your luck to get it

Emotionally

Differences of views with your partner or lover in an emergency case that keeps you away for a limited time

Aquarius

professionally

Something that makes you feel weak and frustrated, but it will not affect your determination and confidence and you will overcome it thanks to your strong will

Emotionally

The day is confused in your emotions after you have been waiting to seduce the other party's heart away from it and trying to show your lack of interest

Pisces

professionally

You may lose confidence in friends as a result of something, but do not let time change you and keep you well and deal with others

Emotionally

Be in need today for your partner or beloved but preoccupied with things you find trivial, avoid any quarrel with him

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Dragon Age: Origins - Episode 17 (TV Series) - Duration: 59:37.

(RECAP) I see only one way to proceed. I will call for a Landsmeet, a gathering of all

of Ferelden's nobility in the city of Denerim. There, Ferelden can decide who

shall rule, one way or another. It will take some time to recall my forces and

organize our allies, in the meantime I suggest you pursue the remainder of the

Grey Warden treaties.

(RECAP) There are three main groups that we have treaties for:

the Dalish Elves, the Dwarves of Orzammar, and the Circle of Magi.

Where will we find the Dalish elves?

If we heard eastward, towards the Brecilian Forest, we

should hear word of one of the clans that wanders that area. Hopefully they

will still be there.

MORRIGAN: Ugh! Look what your fool dog placed in my pack!

A putrid, half-eaten hare is not something a woman wants to find in her unmentionables.

ELISSA: It's the thought that counts, he means well.

MORRIGAN: The dirty mongrel can have this back.

There, and tell him not to do it again!

ELISSA: You heard the lady.

DURGEN: (whines)

MORRIGAN: I don't want it, you worthless fur bag!

DURGEN: (whimpers)

ELISSA: I think you hurt his feelings

MORRIGAN: Oh, he's just trying to be manipulative. I can

tell, I do it too.

ELISSA: Do you know anything about the Dalish?

LELIANA: I have heard a little about how the

elves gain their freedom from the Tevinter Imperium.

When Andraste began

her Exalted March against the Imperium, the elves joined her cause to fight

their masters. The great elven leader, Shartan, born in captivity, rose up to

lead his people. He foresaw a future where the elves were free.

Shartan was killed when Andraste was betrayed, but the elves continued to

fight. Eventually breaking free of the Imperium,

the elves claimed The Dales in the south, and settled there in the land of their

own.

ELISSA: It didn't last.

LELIANA: The elves lived in the Dales for centuries. They

resurrected the worship of the elven gods, and would allow the building of no

Chantry. This angered the Chantry, and the hostility between the two factions

finally broke out in open war. The Chantry says the elves struck first, but

I do not know whether to believe it. The Chantry declared a holy Exalted March

against the elves, named for Andraste's march against Tevinter.

During the exalted march of The Dales, the elven cities were sacked and the

elven state completely dissolved. Some of the elves bitterly accepted their fates

and surrendered a human rule, living in the human cities as second-class

citizens. But others, still fiercely proud of their heritage, refused to bow to the

humans and instead became homeless wanderers. They were the elves of The

Dales; The Dalish.

SHALE: I've watched a lot of humans in my time, it should be aware that I have decided

that it is... not much like any of them.

ELISSA: Thanks, Shale.

SHALE: Surely it must come from some

superior lineage, yes? Some breed a flesh creature that has decided to elevate its

genetic stock above its natural shortcomings?

ELISSA: You were once a "flesh creature" yourself.

SHALE: Don't remind me. I would appreciate if it

didn't spread around that I said anything. Humans might start to get the

wrong idea, they might start thinking their race is not completely hopeless.

ELISSA: Thanks for the vote of confidence.

SHALE: It is quite welcome. Now, let us crush

something into a fine paste before it starts to think I've gone all soft.

Perish the thought!

WYNNE: What's on your mind?

ELISSA: As a Grey Warden... I'll never lead a normal life, will I?

WYNNE: No, you won't.

ELISSA: I already knew the answer, don't know why I asked.

WYNNE: Because you

were not looking for the answer, but for someone to tell you that in spite of it

you'll be alright. You wonder sometimes, don't you? If your life would be better

if you weren't who you are.

ELISSA: A little...

WYNNE: When I was a young woman in the tower, I came

to the realisation that The Circle would be my life, and I would know no other.

Family. Love. A simple life. These were things that others took for granted

that I would never have.

ELISSA: Grass is always greener on the other side.

WYNNE: it made me very moody. All I could think of was being trapped in that tower, with no way

out and no end in sight. I started hating my life, and myself, and one night I found

myself in the tower's Chapel. I was seeking refuge, maybe answers.

ELISSA: Did you find anything?

WYNNE: I must have looked tearful, or made some noise, because the Revered

Mother came out and decided to speak to me. And because I had no one else to talk

to, I talked to her.

I must have said many silly things, but she told me that The Maker puts us all

on our paths for a reason. And fighting our intended course is what causes so

much anguish.

ELISSA: And that made you feel better?

WYNNE: Ha! I thought the old biddy was full of rubbish. I was 15, maybe 16, and I knew

everything. So I left, but I always found my way back to that Chapel. And as the

years passed, I began to see the truth of her words. We were supposed to be polar

opposites, mage and priest, but we weren't. There was much about us that was

the same.

ELISSA: But priests have to choose to be priests, mages don't.

WYNNE: Not all priests

choose their path. Some children are given to the Chantry to raise and become

initiates. The Revered Mother had lived in the Chantry all her life, as I had

been in the tower for all of mine. She taught me that you can find your family

in the people around you. That you can love your work, and find fulfillment in

duty. And there is joy even in self-sacrifice. If you put others before

yourself, then their well-being is yours, and their happiness is your happiness.

ELISSA: That doesn't sound healthy.

WYNNE: It isn't healthy to throw yourself at a pack of

Darkspawn either, in order to save the world, so I'd say you're in no position

to judge. You can scream and cry and be angry about life as a Grey Warden. Or, you

can accept it and allow yourself to see the good in it. This is your choice.

ELISSA: I need to tell you... how much I enjoy your company.

ALISTAIR: You know, I was just thinking the same thing. Given the circumstances, things

could have been so much worse. I'm so grateful that you're... you, instead of some

other Grey Warden. Hmm, that sounded better in my head. I just mean to say

that, I've really come to care about you.

ELISSA: I feel the same way.

ALISTAIR: Now we just need to

be rid of that pesky Archdemon and everything will be back to normal, right?

[THEME SONG]

ZEVRAN: What say you?

ELISSA: What's your opinion of The Dalish?

I know little enough at the

dalish other than the fact that my mother was one or so I was told she'd

fallen in love with an elven woodcutter and accompanied him back to the city

living her clan behind for good and there of course the woodcutter died of

some filthy disease and my mother was forced into prostitution to pay off his

debts all his tale in the book Safran that's horrible is it it seemed

normal enough a tale growing up not different than the other elephant boys

in the whorehouse I didn't know my mother either of course she died giving

birth to me my first victim as it were we were all raised communally by the

horse it was a happy enough existence ignoring

the occasional beating until eventually I was sold to the crows I brought again

price so I hear it could have been much worse shall I tell you about what

happened to the other whorehouse boys who did not fetch a decent price with

the crows surely your life has not been so idyllic people like you and I are not

the product of happy lives of contentment after all well up until my

family was slaughtered by a supposed friend my life was pretty good my

original point is that my mother's dalish nature was always a point of

fascination for me through all the years of micro training the one thing of my

mother's that I possessed was a pair of gloves they were of Danish make I knew

that much and beautiful I had to keep them hidden of course as we were not

allowed such things eventually they were discovered and I never saw them again

but you don't think of yourself as Danish not at all I think of myself as

aunt even still that did not stop me from running off to join a clan when I

drew near antiva City once naturally the reality did not live up at

all to the fantasies I had constructed as a boy staring at those gloves but

such is life come enough talk of the dalish let us

move on

stop right there outsider the dalish have camped in this spot I suggest you

go elsewhere and quickly actually I've been looking for the dalish I find that

hard to believe what business could we dalish possibly have with a group like

yours I am a Grey Warden I wish to speak to your leader a Grey Warden how do I

know you're telling the truth you will have to take my word on it

I suppose that a lie wouldn't gain you much benefit I shall bring you to the

keeper in the camp I suggest you keep your hands to yourself and remember that

our ears are still trained on you follow me

hmm I see we have guests

and a hound amongst them as if we haven't had enough problems with such

creatures who are these strangers Mithra I have precious little patience and less

time to spend on outsiders today this one claims to be a Grey Warden and

wishes to speak with the clan I thought it best to leave the decision to you

that was wise of you Monsieur Innes Mithra you may return to your post mana

Vina and keeper no allow me to introduce myself

I am Zephyr Ian the keeper of this clan its guide and preserver of our ancient

law and you are my name is ELISA a pleasure to meet you manners from ash

Emlyn interesting what might be your mission here have you come to spread

news of the blight I had already sensed the corruption spreading in the south

the existence of the blight is not news to me I would have taken the clan north

by now had we the ability to move sadly as you can see we do not I imagine you

are here regarding the treaty we signed centuries ago unfortunately we may not

be able to live up to the promise we made this will require some explanation

please follow me

the Klan came to the Brazilian forest one month ago as is our custom when we

enter this part of Ferelden we are always wary of the dangers in the

forest but we did not expect the werewolves would be lying and wait for

us they ambushed us though we drove the beasts back much damage was done many of

our warriors like dying as we speak even with all our magic and healing skill we

will eventually be forced to slay our brethren to prevent them from becoming

beasts the blights evil must be stopped but we are in no position to uphold our

obligations I am truly sorry there are actual werewolves in the forest there

was a time in farallon's history when where beasts roamed the lands and great

numbers spirits possessed animals and turned them into horrific monsters the

humans ward against and destroyed these creatures no doubt their tales of those

days grow ever more inaccurate flemeth tells tales of such a time packs of

possessed wolves the kin to abominations roaming the land it was a terrible age

now long past the where beasts are not all gone from this land and the ones

that stalk the Brazilian forests are proof of this why do these beasts attack

you they are savage and unrelenting they need no reason to attack anyone what is

curious however is the ambush we expect werewolves to be no more cunning than a

rabid wolf the ambush suggests a level of intelligence we've never seen before

maybe they aren't as and intelligent as you think I doubt that the very curse

that is in their blood fills them with an unreasoning rage that precludes any

true thought there's a no way to help your men the affliction is a curse that

runs rampant in their blood bringing great agony and then ultimately either

death or a transformation into something monstrous the only thing that could help

them must come from the source of the curse itself and that that would be no

trivial task to retrieve I am good at non trivial tasks

within the Brazilian forest dwells a great wolf we call him wither Fang it

was within him that the curse originated and through his blood that it has been

spread if he is killed and his heart brought to me perhaps I could destroy

the curse but this task has proven too dangerous for us I sent some hunters

into the forest a week ago but they have not returned I cannot risk any more of

my clan you said you could perhaps destroy the curse there is no guarantee

that this will work as I suspect but it's the only hope we have left I'll

find this wither Fang for you I must warn you that more than werewolves lurk

in the Brazilian forest it has a history full of carnage and murder you see where

there is so much death the veil separating the spirit realm from our own

becomes thin allowing spirits to possess things living or dead but if you can

indeed help then I wish you luck I have some questions for you make them quick

if you please I have much to do here my apprentice Lanaya or say Rael the clans

the storyteller could provide you with answers just as easily tell me more

about this curse the hunters suffer from there is not much to say it stemmed

originally from whither Fang but now any werewolf may infect someone with it so

did all werewolves everywhere stem from wither fame no the ones from this forest

however do so if a werewolf bites me then I will become infected it is

possible but not guaranteed the only way to protect against the curse is not to

be bitten how do you know if you've been infected by the curse you will know

within a matter of days you will begin to sweat and vomit and most tellingly

your temper will become wild and uncontrollable if that happens to you

you should seek out whither Fang even more swiftly your mission at that point

will be rather personal how did this curse start that is a long tale I do not

have time to tell asks a Rael about it if you wish I must return into caring

for my people creators speed on your way under annotation Grey Warden my name is

Luna I am sapiens first what you might call

an apprentice perhaps I've been studying under the keeper all my life I am a bit

curious of the outside world do you mind if I ask you a question or two if you

like go ahead I hear the human cities are very large

thousands upon thousands of souls all packed together in their houses is that

true yes some are larger than the I can see how very loud that must be with

everyone talking all at once I try to imagine those of our people living in

such a place surrounded by walls of stone and indifference

it is a difficult thought it isn't an easy life for them that's true I suppose

you have met many of my kind in your travels my heart goes out to them it is

said that one day we will have a land of our own we dalish gather the ancient

wisdom and preparation for this when that day comes all elves even those who

have forgotten will reclaim their former glory I have a question if it's not too

impolite to ask do your people regret what they did to ours some of us do not

all humans are the same I see that is difficult for our people to accept even

if only some were in favor of what was done to us the rest did nothing to stop

it a poet once wrote of them before the

fall of the dales like dragons they fly glory upon wings like dragons

they savage fearsome pretty things but you don't need me to quote poetry to you

forgive me perhaps you have some questions of your own tell me more about

yourself I'm hardly anyone special I assure you if I seem different from the

rest of my clan it's only because I was born amongst humans

I came to the dalish at a very young age but I've always retained my curiosity

about the world I came from how did you come to the date-ish if you were so

young my parents were servants to a human merchants whose caravans plied the

southern routes one day bandits killed him and my

parents both I was the only survivor just a young girl and the bandits took

me I was their servant for several years I'm sorry

it must have been horrible it was the long years of reflection have allowed me

to come to terms with it to put them in perspective I can only imagine what

would have happened had the clan not saved me from them I owe them my life

for that and more the dalish rescued you from bandits the bandits killed a scout

when the clan passed near their camp when the clan discovered him zathrian

came looking for his killers he followed their tracks for almost a month and when

he finally caught up to us he fell in the bandits like a terror no one could

stop him i sat there and I watched him attack them in a blur and I reveled in

every blow and he saw me the fury in his eyes turned to pity he took me back to

the clan and I've been here ever since didn't you have family you could have

returned to it's possible I might have had some may be many zathrian offered to

take me back but I had no idea where I was from and I wanted to stay with a man

who rescued me the clan is my family any others out there it's best they believe

that little girl died with her parents for now the clan is all I need my old

world could not have offered me all this and the knowledge of a keeper as well

perhaps one day when I am keeper I might inquire out of curiosity I'm not sure

what lies down that road except pain however how did you become a keeper I am

NOT a keeper I am zathrian first though because I was

not born into the clan becoming his first was very difficult

we dalish have old traditions the clans come from the ranks of the nobility that

once ruled the Dales you see the keepers of those old clans have the strongest

and purest blood that reaches back to the days of our laughin i had to compete

against the other candidates for first to be better than them in everything

simply because i was not of the old blood you must be proud of your

accomplishments I am the ceremony was a three and anointed me as his first was

the proudest of my life the clan has placed great

trust at me one day I will lead them and be the one who secures our future what

does it keep it do exactly a keeper is first and foremost the leader of the

clan he decides where we go and when we shall move he's also responsible for

knowing the clans ancient lore and passing it on to the others in the clan

without a keeper the clans knowledge is lost forever

so the clan protects him like no other what can you tell me about zathrian

nothing that you could not ask Sabri and himself he is the keeper of this clan

and has been for a very long time he is also a very good man who has lost much

the dalish are everything to him and he would do anything to protect them lost

much what does he lost he lost his family a very long time ago I don't know

the story but I understand the circumstances were horrific

I should go as you wish Darth Shiro we few Wanderers greet you chemin we

understand you are venturing into the haunted forest to save our brethren I

suspect your efforts may be in vain an entire group of our hunters went into

the forest to do as you intend and they have not returned if I'm lucky maybe I

can find them an outsider to the rescue but of course what were we doing trying

to solve our own problems I'm just trying to help your people nothing will

help us now least of all the meddling of an outsider you are being most unkind

Cyril would you refuse our hunters help simply because of the hand that offered

it I have allowed my bitterness to cloud my better judgment

forgive me grey woody it is most difficult to forget the lessons the

Shemin have taught us it is even more difficult when you live amongst them

trust me perhaps I can yet make amends stay while

I spin a tale for our children and then I will tell you of the forest if you

desire I'd like that come and join us then all of you

now what say we tell the story of the fall of the Dales which of your children

knows that best I I think I do yes then come child oh don't be frightened of the

outsiders now where do you suppose such a tale should begin when we were slaves

yes long ago our people were slaves to an empire the Semillon had built on the

darkest magic they took away our history and our language and left us nothing and

then that Empire fell we were freed because on trust he came with her army

and scharton joined her yes andraste the Semillon prophet came out of the south

and challenged the tevinter imperium our ancestor sat and fought at her side and

when the rebellion came to an end we were given a new homeland in the West

the Dales we began to rebuild the culture in

history we had lost in our years of slavery we worshipped the creator's made

the Dales our home perhaps you know what happened next stranger do you know what

happened to the Dales you started a war with us and lost we started the war did

we and you child what do you believe happened to the Dales the shenlin

wouldn't let us be indeed they resented that we would not worship their maker

and they resented our ways because they were so different from their own

ash emmalin nations grew cold towards the Dales

they called us blasphemous and tyrants and declared war upon us a Great Crusade

on every human felt that way I'm sure and which is worse

the actions of those who believed they were right or the inaction of those who

knew they were wrong oh I am certain we played a part in our downfall

we believe that the Semillon would not revoke their prophets gift so lightly we

were wrong they took our lands forcing us to

abandon our gods and livers beggars in Semillon cities but there were those of

us who refused to abandon our ways they emblazoned the symbols of the creator's

upon their flesh and vowed to keep their ancient law alive that's that's the

dalish indeed child we chose to wonder homeless rather than be ruled by the

Shemin and all our clans wonder alone until the day we have a homeland once

more and we bring the old ways back to our people because they have forgotten

at all we are the dalish the keepers of the lost law the walkers of the lonely

path we are the elvenar and never again shall we submit and that is the tale of

the Dales stranger thank you for allowing us to tell it to you perhaps

you'll allow me to tell a story as well perhaps another time

you are the guest here and one who may yet prove of great help to our ailing

hunters now as I said I would I can tell you what I know of the Brazilian forest

do you wish to hear it yes tell me of the forest our legends say that before

the Shemin came the Brazilian forest was a place of our ancestors that predated

even our oldest homeland the people of the Imperium came here and gave the

forest its name if they found traces of our ancestors we cannot say if they did

those elves were slain or enslaved we know only the great many battles were

fought here these trees grow upon the graves of those who fell Shem 'ln and

elves both so much death in one place tore the veil into the beyond the Shem

'ln know the beyond as the fade the place of dreams and spirits when the

veil is torn spirits passed into our world freely the legends say that one

great spirit possessed the wolf that became whither Fang

with a Fang still exists today so zathrian insists he says that whether

Fang does not age as the werewolves do with a Fang is as much spirit as it is

beasts and thus it is immortal perhaps it cannot even be slain at the

very least it is old and powerful much as zathrian himself

how many werewolves are there no one knows when the Semillon lived in these

parts a curse would spread anew to a few of them with each passing year they

would run off into the forest never to be seen again eventually all the

semillon left one assumes the werewolves survived by passing their curse to their

offspring they have had no new blood until now have the hunters become

werewolves it is said that one or two have turned already though the keeper

denies it as for the rest they will either die or turn unless they are

killed out of mercy I would rather die than become a ravening soulless beast

wouldn't you so there are many spirits in the forest the forest is said to

beyond it spirits possess the trees the Wolves even the bodies of the dead they

yearn for true life you see that's all I need to know one last warning

the forest is like a thing alive it changes as it wills closing paths behind

you and opening up new ones too many have become lost within unable to find

their way out where are you I would endeavor not to make the forest

my enemy

ah no I know who this is this is Fenner L the dread wolf

according to elven legend he tricked all the other elven gods and sealed them

away in the fade for all eternity you know the elves he worked in the

kitchens back home used to call Durga an offender al this one time he managed to

lock them in the store room before he raided the kitchen we still don't know

how he did that and their annotation stranger I am a therus I hope the others

have not been too harsh in their treatment of you I understand that is

very generous of you most would assume we are unkind as a rule and that is not

the case especially not to a Grey Warden but we have lost much and it is easy to

forget simple niceties at such a time I understand you will search for the

wolves in the Brazilian forest I would join you but zathrian has forbidden me

forbidden you we are banned from entering the forest

now I have more cause than most but I will not disobey my keeper why do you

want to enter the forest that is a tale I am not sure I should tell an outsider

surely you have greater concerns than my problem stranger please I'd like to hear

about it it's hard to talk so freely with a stranger but perhaps you can't

help me my wife danila and I both fought the

werewolves in the ambush she was injured so gravely the curse spread rapidly in

her zathrian fought hard to ease her pain but there was little he could do

and though he says that danila is dead he will not let me see her her body I am

beginning to believe she became a werewolf and that it is being kept for

me so I do not go chasing after her if I could just know with deny Allah is alive

or what happened to her then I could be at peace I will seek her out in the

forest I have an ambulance on our craftsman it's not much but I would be

happy to give it to you in return for any news

not of a city of myself forests like this just seem so very filthy

the watch wolves have spoken truly my brothers and sisters the daily said the

human of all things to repay us for our attack to put us in our place bitter

irony you speak I thought werewolves were savage beasts

but we are no longer tell them we won't gladly watch them suffer the same person

we love suffered we I would prefer to talk to you I mean you no harm

was it not suffering who sent you he was his homely whore destruction their bark

Paul you talk of zathrian as if you know him he would not survive the experience

I swear it why exactly why do you hate him so much

you know nothing do you nothing of us and even less of those who serve you are

a fool and we are talking running from the forest while you can run to the

dalish and tell them they are doomed I don't want to fight but neither can I

retreat I do not wish to fight you either but we cannot trust you brothers

and sisters let us retreat the forest has ice of its own and it will deal with

intruders as it always has

who who comes you're badly wounded what happened to you we were sent to find

wither Fang bring his heart attack hi he's still breathing

let's get him back to the dalish camp

and Darren at each in grey warden our scouts are you approaching and tell me

you carry the body of one of our hunters with you ah

Dagan he is wounded but I think he will live Masood on us your help is

appreciated come let allene let us take dig into the

keeper and quickly if we are lucky we may still save him

what manner of beast disease that comes before this elder-tree can't you see me

I am a human yes I remember thy time so brief of life and all but blind to the

peril you calls the lives you take such chaos his soul within thy way allow me a

movement to welcome me I am called the grand Oh sometimes the elder tree it

rhymes it is a rhyming tree one can only

imagine what manner of spirits is involved here and unless thou think'st

it far too soon might I ask of thee a boon why do you speak in rhymes I do not

know why just how not and I would seem play a mundane lot perhaps a poet souls

in me does that make me a poetry a

poetry yes I get it it was not a simple jest a jibe to

entertain my yes what are you exactly

I am an elder oak and nothing more though once I dreamt of a time before

when I roamed the world and howl with pain not of this world but tweeks

perhaps I was a spirit then of wandering the thing drawn to this Glen but then

that spirit joined with a tree since then a tree is all it just seems that

the other tree's a far more hostile of the sylvans this is true

they are quite bad their virtues are spirit trapped within a tree no mouth to

scream more eyes to see a cage of bark a prison wood a thing of rage where nature

stood so twisted Sylvan they become but I am not the same as some I accept my

fate head oak in the home I feel no need to rage at road I would like to know

more of this forest I can only speak to what a tree may see it may not help you

but it is enough for me year it was the elves who planted the seeds raised the

forest saw to its needs what that was all so long ago that they are dead is

all I know what happened here to make the forest like this a great

perhaps I cannot tell I was not here when it befell but many deaths here all

the same and with the deaths the spirits came the spirits entered corpse and tree

and most went mad as thou canst see the forest had a spirit of its own from back

when its first seeds were sown perhaps she died of grief that day or perhaps

she simply went away or perhaps the wares are the ones to blame for the day

she left is the day they came I don't understand I speak as clearly as I see

plainer than this I cannot be where can I find wither fangs lair in the center

of the forest the wares to dwell or so go the tales my fellows tell but they

cannot be followed there the forest does protect the wares is there any other way

to get to the center of the forest perform the moon as I ask and I shall

reward thee for the tasks I have but one desire to solve a matter very dire as I

slept one early morn a thief did come and steal an acorn an acorn all I have

is might be my seed without it I am alone indeed I cannot go

note yet I shall die if left without very well I will help you go to the

least to find this man I shall await you what how tab

how odd a camp with no campers complete with fire and warm blankets rather

inviting would you not say more suspicious than inviting

the Elven hunters didn't make this camp and I don't feel very bloody concerned

about that I just want a nap of all things go figure

no we we can't sleep here we need to go

I did not realize I was so tired he should sleep for a while or but did I

just say that I feel it too we we need to stay awake

I'm surprised that fire hasn't burned out we should tend it is it a stick

about hmm I'm tired yes we should use the camp

we need to sleep

a hungry spirit luring those who pass to their rest and there do I might wonder

how it learned this trick no matter it shall pray on no one else there's a

chest here maybe some good can come out of this man maker forsaken death camp

after wore a ring looks expensive and are these Danish clubs Severin take a

look at these gloves you're giving me gloves what for the tailless clubs like

your mother's I make us breath you're right

it is like my mother's the letter was less thick and it's had more embroidery

but these are very close and quite handsome it was nothing still I

appreciate the fact that you even thought of me no one has simply given me

a gift before thank you

wait we are back at the beginning of the path the forest it seems does not wish

us to reach wherever the path leads how protective what happened to you you'll

keep zathrian is the one who sent me here I do have you seen him

I spoke to a therus he worries about you

there must be some way to heal you very well I will end your pain

Oh

howdy-ho dear not a werewolf or not a spirit even what other woods coming -

what are you babbling on about questions questions always questions they said was

questions that made me mad what'll do the same for you

ask a question and you'll get a question but give an answer and you'll receive

the same oh I do so love to trade you're quite mad obviously no that is

not a question and if it be an answer it'd be an answer to a question I've not

asked have you no sense for the rules be cautious this is no ordinary madman

he has magic I can sense it powerful magic no fair bringing mages to a

guessing game will you play by the rules or not then would you like to ask me a

question I think it is your turn to ask is it not

who are you Who am I why do you want to know did they send you

debate hell you asked who's they oh did they tell you to pretend to be an

innocent stranger with a head full of fluff and nothing I'm trickier than I

look ha ha I survived still and the trees they

leave me be ha ha night one they will never find me never you're mad do you

know a better way to live in a forest like this ha ha ha but that's all I have

to say about that an answer for an answer there you go do you want to ask

me something else may i oh yes I think I might know what

shall be the first oh yes what is your name

you may call me ELISA aha so you claimed they sent you didn't they

but you're too tricky and you're trying to fool me well I'm on to you just so

you know but it is your turn to ask now ask ask away I dare you

so you live in this stump yes I live here and it's not as bad as you think

where else to go hey I must stay away from them they are out there and looking

they will take your secrets oh yes all of them and leave you empty but that's

all I have to say about that an answer for an answer there you go

would you like to ask me another question

hmm where were you born I was born on my family estate in the north so you say

fiendishly clever of you to maintain this facade for so long but I will see

through it yet mark my words but it is your turn to ask now ask ask

away I dare you do you have the Grand Oaks

ACORN suddenly it all becomes clear you hear that's talking tree there it all

makes sense now as a matter of fact yes I do have that trees ACORN I stole it

and it was easy silly tree should have locked it up

tighter if you want it you'll have to trade me for it and nothing from that

silly tree no leaves or branches or anything but that's all I have to say

about that an answer for an answer there you go ask me something else let's see

do you have a knowledge of the arcane arts can't you tell

if I could tell I wouldn't have to ask you now would I do you have the

knowledge or not no of course not oh well that's disappointing but wait what

if you are lying aha you thought to scamper away without

suspicion did you what I can come to you but it is your turn to ask now ask ask

away I dare you I want to trade for the Acorn oh and

what do you have to trade for the Acorn how about some gold coin coin what

possible use could I have with coin and do you see a money changer about how

about this silver ring I found in the ruins

hey I once had a ring like that this one's Chinese still yes I'll take

it give me that

there now that's done what else have you got on your agenda hmm

I should go oh I see you're going to report to them now are you fine good bye

my a corn is still gone so I pray to thee hast thou any news for me is this

the Acorn you seek my joy soars to new heights indeed I am reunited with my

seed as I promised here at me I hope it's magic pleases

thee keep this branch of mine with thee and pass throughout the forest free I

wish thee well my mortal friend thou brought my sadness to an end

may the sunlight find you my days be long my winters kind and my roots be

strong

you

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