hey it's Evie! :) I know the angle is gorgeous isn't that got such a
beautiful background
don't you guys so I'm sorry looking as messy as a house
right now I'm doing spring cleanup and you know what that's like if you're a
dog owner yeah so that's what I'm doing outside that's what the big black big oh
he can't see it's behind me
all right you guys while I'm outside spring cleaning
I was thinking of some videos that I should be doing because I I know I had
tons in my head and I was thinking well what do I get asked a lot about and I
know a lot of you don't care what I look like so I think you know what just go
talk about that now
people have you hope guys have asked me what do I do about friends have I lost
my friends you have how am i a mom how do I take care of my kids maybe I should
make a different video for that one but friends yeah I have friends I still have
friends but there are more like the acquaintances kind of friends what I
mean you occasionally hang out like once or twice a year
or you bump in and talk to one another meet up but you don't know I really
don't know much about your house you kind of keep that a quiet kind of thing
you know cuz you're out with friends you're not supposed to be dwelling on
those things right painted my nails this funky peach color I'm not sure how I
feel about it
it's so beautiful today you guys it's so so nice my legs are killing me I know
there's some kind of storm coming and sure enough means that there's a good
storm coming so at least it doesn't involve snow this time it's like 62
degrees today I could actually take my hoodie off but it's nice to have a big
pocket put all my stuff in napkins and Kleenexes dog see oh that's it
usually they be a pack of smokes in there but not anymore
today's day thirteen by the way I've been doing pretty good
speaking of which that's what this looks like this is what's been helping me quit
smoking
I guess you could say I'm one of those types of people that I'm very happy
alone I don't need friends every kind of lying
yesterday I had one of those days you guys know the moon the new movie that
came out it's called I know people either love her or hate her personally
in the movies I think she's she's pretty funny to
watch Amy Schumer Schumer I think they say I don't know her as a person so I
can't judge her as such but in the movies are funny yeah I really wanted to
go see this movie right and I asked a friend to go with her husband said she
says her husband won't let her she couldn't she had to do other things
and I asked a couple people I wouldn't normally ask just for the hell of it
you know how you getting one of those notes and then I told me I said screw it
yeah I'm just gonna go by myself I don't need anybody to go with me so I did I
drove out of town to go to movies cuz we don't have anything around here like
that don't even have a store in my cowan so I went out and it's like an hour
drive from here and I knew that well I'm gonna get a bite to eat and then I'm
gonna hit up the movies so I stopped at this buffet type thing and it was closed
it was Sunday but like really be closed buffets are my favorite and I sat in a
car and you guys I got so pathetically sad so sad because Nate's not much of
going for movies but mom was and we didn't go often I'm really bad actually
with keeping up with new movies and stuff but once in a while I come across
really good previews and say oh I want to go see that you know and it was this
I feel pretty one and I just got so sad I started crying in the car like a baby
it's like man I know cuz the last time I watched movie was with mom we went out
to the movies and it was that other movie if I think of it I'll let you know
what it's called but it was with Amy Schumer I don't know if I'm saying that
right and it was like a mother daughter movie and it was hilarious her name I
had some really good laughs but yeah and it was just another reminder that my
best friend that mom wasn't here and I'm one of those that you can have two three
four or five best friends I don't believe in that one best friend because
I really think of my husband as my best friend too you know like your children
you love them you love them just as much but there's different things you love
about them you know what I mean you know have topic but yeah it's like boy I
really don't have friends mom was my friend I didn't realize how much time
and energy I put into mom and here I was upset with myself because I felt they
should have done more but it was kind of a hit a slap in the face yesterday and
I'm like okay stop better and then I thought what about my brother Josh and
Dustin Josh is really far away and then Dustin human-eye weekend Butthead
sometimes but you slipped with me a few times he slipped with us a few times and
we could butt heads sometimes but Dustin's one of those that sometimes he
can be too serious and then at times you need him to be serious he's he's not
very serious but he's got a really good heart well he's also one of those that
he can make a total fool out of himself and he doesn't care what anybody thinks
and that's what I love about my brother Dustin and chick flicks and like my 21st
birthday him and I have sings a birthday May 15th
he's two years older than me and I always joke and say that must have been
mom's breeding season because we both have different dads actually three of us
have different dads and but we don't look at each other as
halves and anyways like my 21st birthday we went out to the casino and Nathan
went dance he's not a dancer and but Dustin
he's not no professional dancer but he was out there dancing with me and we had
the greatest time he's just one of those so I thought how I should see if
Dustin's in this town I'll message him so I message shaman what you up to
are you here by chance are you in this town by chance and sure enough he was
you guys you just walks away so like well would you like to go to a chick
flick with me and he did and come to find out you guys he was just at the if
some kind of horror film that's out now but he went to the movie or the show
house just minutes before me me asking him so he went with me I'm probably not
gonna edit this video you guys just put it out as it is cuz it was just
something I was thinking about and I look like poo in the house looks like
poo and I just wanted to talk with you guys so but my point is as far as
friends friends I'm learning you have to be friends with yourself if you want
true happiness you can not rely on anybody else because you'll get
disappointed it'd be hurt every time you've really got to rely on yourself to
be happy yeah others can make you happy for sure but I think too many of us
depend depend too much on others to be happy you know what I mean like the
friends that I lost I used to party with and when I had this stuff came on I
couldn't party all the time or when I became a mother those so-called friends
weren't friends from the get-go they were party friends they were friends
when it was convenient for them you know what I mean and
your families your friends if you have family someone you wouldn't normally go
do something with go go I'm like lately I've been going with my dad to his
chiropractor appointments yeah I asked um if he needs anything right
what's a right along there you know little things like that those are your
friends you know just can be anybody be your own friend you gotta learn to just
enjoy yourself to thank you you want friends
I learned do you gotta go out there and find them and I think I'm pretty much
happy with my family my loved ones being my friends if a friend comes along great
I think of all you guys as my friends and family but it kinda stinks when you
can't you know I can't see who's watching this video and reading those
nice comments from you guys that really makes my day but do you want to mean
like you guys know what I'm about you hear me talking you see me talking but I
don't see you speaking of which you guys we are planning a big okay there's a big
family reunion on my father's side in Virginia we have a lot of family and
like Virginia West Virginia Connecticut New Hampshire we did you know over there
anyways I was thinking we're gonna do it I haven't seen family there from like 15
years two weeks before I met Nate is when I went there and the airplane well
we're gonna be taking the car and the kids this time and the kids are gonna
finally be able to meet some family they've never met before so I'm really
excited about it we just have to do it my aunt on she she makes quilts like no
other she gets really fancy I I don't even know how to make a damn quilt but
she's really good at it and she offered to make a blanket for me a quilt out of
moms clothes and I don't know if you guys think that's kind of creepy but I
think that's kind of cool so I'm supposed to gather some of that stuff up
and we're really excited to see my cousin's B cousin Jesse and stuff maybe
I could do some recording over there I don't know let me know if you guys would
like that anyways do any of you who live in Virginia I'll think of it I'll find
out the towns and stuff we'll be going too but I thought it'd be so cool if
even one or just two spoonies I know I'm no one special you guys but I thought
it'd be so cool just to maybe meet up at a coffee shop or something and just meet
one of you or two of you whoever's out there so let me know if any of you guys
are from Virginia I live in Virginia okay that'd be that'd be really awesome
so I guess that's the message of today is that you don't have any friends be
your friend be your own friend find ways to enjoy your own company
I enjoy my own company personally I find people to be training and I hope that
doesn't come off bad um I don't know I don't know how to explain it like I'm
happy to be in my own space don't get me wrong I'd love to I'd love to go hang
out with some friends or go have a drink and then which jet doesn't hardly ever
happen but it's just you notice it's so emotionally draining and if that's the
right word for it I love interacting and talking to people but boy does it just
exhaust you how about those friends that once you see them like it's been a long
time once you've seen them then they are asking what you're doing tomorrow on the
next day and the next day and it's it's too much for me
and then I'll son if you don't see him for a few days and they like black you
want Facebook alright you guys we may be alone
I'll shut up now but thank you for this name if you mean it this far
hey if you made it this far you should leave a little doggie poo I'm talking
you should leave a little poop emoji in the video for fun I see how their
youtubers do that and I think it's fun I never do it cuz I don't know how many of
you watch old through my videos so I'm gonna go finish packing up dog poop I
had my gloves out here somewhere at least the snow is going away we only
got a super tiny bit you know holy come you guys this video so long
alright I'll shut up maybe I should edit this I guess we'll find out I hope you
guys thanks for listening and share your thoughts tell me um are you guys know
Virginia at all I should have found out the town but when I do I'll share it in
the comment section how about that or in another video I love yes see you next
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